To the Girl who never found herself Beautiful

Note: This open letter was posted on a Facebook page: CJC Open Letters as the first open letter published. It was featured online on Candy Magazine a few months after (https://www.candymag.com/candy-feels/from-our-readers-to-the-girl-who-never-found-herself-beautiful-src-ugc).

You woke up 5:00 in the morning after arranging your bed, the second thing you do is look at the mirror. Comb your hair using your hands because you misplaced your brush again. Looking through the mirror, you said “Damn. I look ugly.” After taking a bath, you wore your uniform and then look at the mirror again, “Damn. I look fat.”

To the girl who finds herself not valuable. She who loves looking through the mirror but hates the person looking at it. To the girl who always loses her brush and not always combing her hair because it can’t change anything.

This girl who loves shopping and dressing up but can’t buy the clothes she wants to wear because it can’t fit. She hates seeing weighing scales because her weight might have increased again. This is for her who starves herself to get the weight and figure she’s aiming for.

This is for the girl who never became the first choice, hence, just the 2nd option, and the always-left-behind. For the girl who never experienced what it feels like to be loved by someone dear to her.

You always get yourself compared to your friends who are prettier than you. You who never got chosen by someone you love. You who always make the first move so that your crush can notice you because boys don’t find you as an attractive lady.

To you who always wonder why your friends effortlessly got their wants and demands while you strive hard to get yours. This is for the girl who did her best to look presentable and pretty but can’t pass the standards of the people. To the girl who always got her first impression as tomboy, strict and scary.

You just see yourself in mirrors and photographs but you never see your eyes sparkle whenever you smile and laugh.

Believe me, whenever I see you smile and your dimple shows up , it’s like all the cameras are looking at you because it really fits you. Whenever you pass by, it’s like you’re walking in your own runway, it’s like you have your own red carpet.

Girl, you’re not just beautiful, you are majestic, resplendent and sophisticated. Someone out there loves you dearly, please don’t forget that. Please don’t change yourself to be someone as the society expects you to be. Don’t expect someone to give you happiness because you’re the one who needs to create it.

You are you and you don’t need their comments to describe you.

To all the people who never find you beautiful, laugh at them and say,

“I am not beautiful because beautiful isn’t enough to describe beauty.”